I might be completely wrong on this, but I have a suspicion that OCD gets triggered at an age when we take on more responsibility for (or at least become more aware of our impact on) others and their well-being (early adulthood). The need to get things right increases, and hence so does the guilt or potential guilt associated with getting things wrong (what if cycle). Becoming a parent, would fit that theory….perhaps? Just a personal theory, I have not read the published literature.
I know you are improving on controlling your symptoms now, but also aware they will never go away unless you battle them. I hope you don't ever get as low again as you related in this posting. That would be a tragic loss, not just to your family, but also to work colleagues and friends (real-life and online). And you must be aware of the positive impact you have had on so many people (mainly women, but also their partners too), so they can see a light out of the gloom. Finally, I don't know what 'fucking dungarees' are? Are they some special kind of design that lets you get more 'intimate'? Sounds a bit kinky, but I;ll keep my eyes open just in case i see any, and I'll let you know ;) Clive
I might be completely wrong on this, but I have a suspicion that OCD gets triggered at an age when we take on more responsibility for (or at least become more aware of our impact on) others and their well-being (early adulthood). The need to get things right increases, and hence so does the guilt or potential guilt associated with getting things wrong (what if cycle). Becoming a parent, would fit that theory….perhaps? Just a personal theory, I have not read the published literature.
I know you are improving on controlling your symptoms now, but also aware they will never go away unless you battle them. I hope you don't ever get as low again as you related in this posting. That would be a tragic loss, not just to your family, but also to work colleagues and friends (real-life and online). And you must be aware of the positive impact you have had on so many people (mainly women, but also their partners too), so they can see a light out of the gloom. Finally, I don't know what 'fucking dungarees' are? Are they some special kind of design that lets you get more 'intimate'? Sounds a bit kinky, but I;ll keep my eyes open just in case i see any, and I'll let you know ;) Clive